Saturday, September 30, 2006
Mood : EMO and Disappointed
Listening to dis song for more than 20 times already i think.. seriously love this song so muchie .. very very touching..>.<aihz... blogging in a very disappointed and sad mood again.. why issit so? i do not know why? urghh !! sometimes i am thinking whether am i doing the right thing? or shud i just say it out? or juz be patient about it? i dunno wat have i done wrong that he needs to neglect me whenever and wherever he is.. yar, told him many times about it but nuthin really seems to be working by words oni.. i tried giving up in dis relationship but my heart felt heavy and my mouth and fingers couldnt type the word " BREAK UP" out.. i alwiz tell myself, no matter wat do not say dat word until really i cant stand it anymore..i wish he would ever understand my feelings now and do something about it. i tried to cry but tears couldnt even flow from my eyes. perhaps it has already dried up? why am i doing dis to myself dat i can actually be very happy with my single life? bare in mind, whenever u are already in a relationship there is something that hold u back from saying something that can nvr take back forever and dis is where the "REGRET" word comes from. (ok, wat am i crapping? do u guys actually understand wat am i writing here ah?nvm, if u dont =) ) Btw, why do guys dun feel bad when they hurt their girlfriends so deep and bad? i really dun understand why..and yet all the girls are soo stupid and blind because they go and love their boyfriends so much and treat them like golds.. one example : ME !!
well, i went to Pyramid with Leo for lunchie and movie on Tuesday ^^.. watched DOA.. OMG !! the girls there dam dam yeng.. how i wish i am one of them? i'll be the Princess Katsumi^^ ( Devon Aoki ) if i can.. haha.. she is dam yeng.. keke.. Oh ya !! theres something i got to say, that time me and Leo was sitting in A&W yumchar and there was this China lady came over to our table and asked us whether wanna tilik our nasib ( somethin like predicting our life?).. i dunno wat is dat called.. den guess wat she said about me by juz looking at my appearance * of cos i didnt pay la* she simply say it out oni.. i aso nvr ask her to say.. haha.. alrite, she said i need to get married earlier..and i told her dat i am oni 18 yrs old and she said.."yeah !! that's da time u shud get married.. itz the right time or u will regret for getting married late for the rest of ur life.." urghh !! actually, i was tempted to listen more about it but den i was thinking by paying RM30 for listening to her talking that we do not know whether it is true anot, i think betta not la.. hehe.. Furthermore i was super broke !! u knoe B.R.O.K.E? haha.. i dun wanna mention and tell why am i broke la..is a dam saddening story..T.T..
( during Lunchie in Korean BBQ Plaza)
P/S : btw i will see when i can gif up in dis relationship and yea, i wont be starting a new one so soon if dis ends =)
