Tuesday, October 24, 2006

Mood :- Tired and bored


I am backie !! i am back to be myself, i didnt break down already..=).. woot, looks like i nvr take a few depressing entries here before getting back in to my happy mode..xD..I really need to thank to my bunch of really great frens that really cheered me up, supported me when i was super duper down for my break up.. the ones i would like to thank for so much caring and concerned about me, those ppl are Aya,Leo and the Gang and Pei who called me all the way from S'pore after receiving my sms about it.. I MISS PEI PEI !!! urghh !! her stupid shitty supervisor didnt let her to take leaves.. and she is supposed to come back next week !! and now bcos of it, she couldnt make it back to celebrate her bday with us !! i really miss her wei..T.T. to pei's supervisor, u see lah..one day she is gonna fire kao u although she wont dare to do so, cos is is a CHICKEN.. wahahaha (she is gonna kill me if she ever reads my blog) =P.. *evil grins* ..


I balik-ed kampung on Sunday and when i got back, gua kena teased by Aya and her BF, ah pau .. dam shitty la they all.. they shud go ZONG BEK !! (bang wall).. Yesterday nite, went to yumcha at SS15 at first, den suddenly decided to go Cheras to Dota, soooooo we went Cheras to dota.. Stupid Inferno, dota mmg got but dennnnnnn... stupid, so LITTLE ppl main.. so we decided to go blueserver but den, stupid cc geh line really sucks to da max, kenot create game, i mean can lah juz that lag until mother aso kenot recognise.. keke.. so we oni played one round, and i got this stupid birdie which i cant really do anythin with but to suck ppl's mana and aso put her konco konco around the backstabbing areas..and as usual, i kena tapao until like ham yuk chung (those dumplings in triangle shape).. hehe.. den finished one game, wanted to play another game but den dunno wat happened already, so we player the Tower Defend, which is so cacated.. cos i alwiz lose.. and then we played Hero, (something liddat) to defend some tower.. haha.. dam stressful wei that game.. need to keep killing all da creeps that comes berlonggok.. den when sudah lose, we wanted to play another round dota, but den tak jadi again cos, laggy !! *mang-ness*.. so in the end we decided to balik rumah.. it was already around 4am.. had fun but oni managed to play 1 round of dota.. keke..

I had fun shopping last Friday in Pyramid too !! i bought a pants from Romp, and a shoes .. these 2 items cost me almost RM100..*faints* well, tapi ada satisfaction and thanks to Aya that she was willing to teman me to shop and i knoe she hates me cos of i bring her to shopping and she aso used up to Rm100 that day dat she was supposed to save for campy's mom's bday cake.. haha.. luckily she didnt kill me..=P.. okay !! i am going out for dinner soon..been eating alot lately, dam fuck !!! urgh.. ppl satt luin will go thinner i pulak terbalik.. *faints*

Posted by Weng See at Tuesday, October 24, 2006

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

And again.. my tears burst out from my eyes..T__T... cant stand it when i think back of things we did and had fun times together.. i am really thinking that it is all my FAULT !! i shouldnt have burst out my anger and juz be patience.. i really regret doing dat.. i hate myself sometimes for doing stupid things and ruin da relationship.. i really hate myself for doing dat.. i really do..can say dis is da second guy i cry until so teruk for.. i will nvr cry until like some stupid biatch for any other guy.. other than these 2 fellas..

oh well, wat can i do? juz wait for his exams to over lo.. patience again lo.. datz wat i have to do rite? if not? i cant force a person to accept me back wat.. all his reason was dun wanna mad me suffer and sad being together with him.. so BLAME all to his gawd dam exams.. and aso him for not studying earlier and attending lectures and made him became liddat and i aso liddat.. if not all these WILL NOT happen !!! it really wont.. AIHZ..

WHATEVER !! i wont go to class for da rest of da week already, until da stupid hari raya sudah over.. den i will start studying for my exams.. IF i have the mood to even touch da gawd dam books.. NOW i juz wanna do something to release my anger and sadness and aso dunno watsoever feelings there are inside my heart.. i cant cry all the time.. i bet my eyes will go swollen and gets even worst !!! i feel like spending all my money in something dat can satisfy me kao kao !!! i feel like drinking, i feel like drunking myself.. feel like doing things that i can avoid myself from thinking things that are not suppose to think.. i seriously hate feeling like dis, for once u are so loved by someone and POOF !!! he is not gonna care for u cos of his exams.. how fucky is dat? (btw fucky is my invented word from da word "FUCK") =D...

Hopefully, after afew more depressing entries, i will write something that i am happy with in my life..i really hope dat..=)

Posted by Weng See at Tuesday, October 17, 2006

Saturday, October 14, 2006

Mood : Sad and depressed with disappointment


Yea, once again itz over between us.. i told him, we need a time out for the time being till his exams are over.. well, wat happen was actually tonite i wanted to go Cheras and meet him.. and i havent been seeing him for 2 GAWD DAMN WEEKS already.. den when i asked him whether he wants to join tonite, he said " see how first.. if too late, dun wanna come out already.. to lazy" i mean.. WHAT THE FUCK?!?!!?? i mean.. dis already shows that he dun even wanna see me rite? liddat might as well break up.. i really cant stand it.. he nvr want to tolerate me..

Okay, now i regretted of wat i said already.. i shudnt be so chong dong ( bertindak melulu).. i knew i cant live without him.. why i wanna say all these? but to think back, i will sure and definitely regret of wat i said and wat i did.. i really dun wanna lose him..my heart is like kena stabbed by a super sharp knife.. I REALLY DUNNO WAT TO DO !!! urghh.. itz like da end of the world for me ... hate being hurt .. hate to feel like dis.. it seriously suck shit to da max...

Posted by Weng See at Saturday, October 14, 2006

Saturday, October 07, 2006

Mood :- *stoned*

Juz woke up not long ago.. i know it is going to be a very boring weekend again. T.T which i dun wan it to be =( HE is not around in KL now.. yea, i miss him .. but i am trying not to miss him so much so that when everything is over i wont get hurt too much.. am i selfish? YES I AM i dun care anywayz.. i have been very very DOWN lately because of this matter.. everyone can notice about it.. aihzz.. i dunno how to overcome dis problem.. abit suffering though =(

Yesterday nite, had 3 rounds of dota.. it was kinda fun at first and when the last round, i almost terpengsan in front of the pc.. too tired already !! ish.. okla, i have been stoned infront of the pc and i think that's all for now =P

Posted by Weng See at Saturday, October 07, 2006

Thursday, October 05, 2006

mood :- in a very Great Disappointment

okay, i guess the people who is reading dis blog will know exactly what am i gonna whine or talk about.. yar !! i am gonna WHINE !! i really dun wan to whine so much but imagine ur boyfriend would go Pahang to celebrate his fren's wedding..okay, i am saying from KL taking a bus to Pahang and he kenot even sacrifice abit to come to their girlfriend's convinient place to hang out with her.. furthermore, already 2 weeks we havent been meeting each other due to his sick and YAH ! now he is going to Pahang TMR !! i mean.. what on earth? do u think he place me in his heart anot? i am really disappointed.. PURE DISAPPOINTMENT in him..i dunno wat to say about it already.. i seriously suffer mentally by thinking all these.. wat i do everyday to keep myself far away from thinking about this issue is playing DOTA every single night and not doing or starting on my GAWD DAMN ASSIGNMENTS which is going to due SOON , so i am going to die rite? yes i am !! =).. well i really do not know wat to do other than wat Aya alwiz told me to YANN (be patient).. Am i not patience enough? everyone patience has itz own limit rite? so i am a HUMAN, so i have limits in my level of patience too ya =).. So why not just give it up on dis relationship and move on my wonderful single life with suffer-ness for the moment rite? other than being disappointed by him EVERY SINGLE DAY..

Well, last Saturday my mom balik kampung and i didnt get to out with HIM.. so i went to Pyramid and i had shopping spree with Aya.. i had fun though .. spend alot too =).. but do i CARE? NO.. not at all juz for da satisfaction of what every girl needs.. but i am not exactly broke now but i need to save.. At first, i wanted to save for something for the SPECIAL SOMEONE.. but afterall, i guess and i think that most probably the money will juz go to somewhere that it is not suppose to.. Sometimes, i feel bored of shopping already.. i really dunno why, okay, i knoe it's weird dat i say it here.. but den 0__0.. yar, i feel tired of shopping at times cos everytime go to da same place, see the same things.. SIEN !!! btw these are the pics me and Aya took during our shopping spree !!

Posted by Weng See at Thursday, October 05, 2006