Saturday, September 30, 2006

Mood : EMO and Disappointed

Listening to dis song for more than 20 times already i think.. seriously love this song so muchie .. very very touching..>.<

aihz... blogging in a very disappointed and sad mood again.. why issit so? i do not know why? urghh !! sometimes i am thinking whether am i doing the right thing? or shud i just say it out? or juz be patient about it? i dunno wat have i done wrong that he needs to neglect me whenever and wherever he is.. yar, told him many times about it but nuthin really seems to be working by words oni.. i tried giving up in dis relationship but my heart felt heavy and my mouth and fingers couldnt type the word " BREAK UP" out.. i alwiz tell myself, no matter wat do not say dat word until really i cant stand it anymore..i wish he would ever understand my feelings now and do something about it. i tried to cry but tears couldnt even flow from my eyes. perhaps it has already dried up? why am i doing dis to myself dat i can actually be very happy with my single life? bare in mind, whenever u are already in a relationship there is something that hold u back from saying something that can nvr take back forever and dis is where the "REGRET" word comes from. (ok, wat am i crapping? do u guys actually understand wat am i writing here ah?nvm, if u dont =) ) Btw, why do guys dun feel bad when they hurt their girlfriends so deep and bad? i really dun understand why..and yet all the girls are soo stupid and blind because they go and love their boyfriends so much and treat them like golds.. one example : ME !!

well, i went to Pyramid with Leo for lunchie and movie on Tuesday ^^.. watched DOA.. OMG !! the girls there dam dam yeng.. how i wish i am one of them? i'll be the Princess Katsumi^^ ( Devon Aoki ) if i can.. haha.. she is dam yeng.. keke.. Oh ya !! theres something i got to say, that time me and Leo was sitting in A&W yumchar and there was this China lady came over to our table and asked us whether wanna tilik our nasib ( somethin like predicting our life?).. i dunno wat is dat called.. den guess wat she said about me by juz looking at my appearance * of cos i didnt pay la* she simply say it out oni.. i aso nvr ask her to say.. haha.. alrite, she said i need to get married earlier..and i told her dat i am oni 18 yrs old and she said.."yeah !! that's da time u shud get married.. itz the right time or u will regret for getting married late for the rest of ur life.." urghh !! actually, i was tempted to listen more about it but den i was thinking by paying RM30 for listening to her talking that we do not know whether it is true anot, i think betta not la.. hehe.. Furthermore i was super broke !! u knoe B.R.O.K.E? haha.. i dun wanna mention and tell why am i broke la..is a dam saddening story..T.T..

( during Lunchie in Korean BBQ Plaza)

P/S : btw i will see when i can gif up in dis relationship and yea, i wont be starting a new one so soon if dis ends =)

Posted by Weng See at Saturday, September 30, 2006

Friday, September 22, 2006

Feeling soo fucked up now.. Seriously i had the worst date of my life !! i nvr felt in this way b4 when i date with my bf... i mean, instead of the feel i have when i go pak tor with my bf.. i was like going out with one of my fren oni.. wat is dis? dis one is not called as a date... NO itz NOT !!! yar, i got think of breaking up with him.. but as i said, i love him so much now till i have no courage to say dat word out.. i am really afraid i will regret for the rest of my life as i did b4.. well, wat is it now? treated me dam good for like 1 month plus.. later all da cold cold aura is wat i can feel now? i have already told him.. no confidence already !!! i swear after dis relationship ended in a negative way.. i wont be accepting any guys so fast anymore.. dam fucking sick !!! but of cos i hope it wouldnt happen la..hehe cos i dun wan it LAH !!!!

well letz see how things go.. i hate it when i put more feelings on a certain guy adi and POOF !!! dis happens to me lahh... ALWIZ LIDDAT !!! wtf? plslahh... i nvr get hurt enuff last time meh? wanna add my wound into a deeper scar? at least b4 together with him i have already 90% healed ler... NOW
wtf is happening?? urghh !! dam hate myself sometimes.. well, wat i can do now wor? juz be patience lo.. i have been very down recently because of dis issue ge lah.. and of cos my exam results aso la.. omfg? da results really suck shit wei !! okay, dun wanna think about it anymore..
datz all for now =) .. dam emo.. dunno wat to write already...

Posted by Weng See at Friday, September 22, 2006

Wednesday, September 20, 2006

I had so much fun during my previous mid-term break.. i was busy since my exam over.. wat i did? Well, my exam over on last last Thursday den Friday i went to Pyramid as usual to look for Aya and also that day was my sis's birthday.. Actually, i was supposed to go out with Vic but den my mom's CR-V was brought to the workshop to be repaired.. and she insisted to use my car to work and all so i cant use the car to go out with him .. huhu T.T ( oh ya ! he doesnt have a car in KL cos he's from other state.. so i have use my car =D) But luckily, i get to meet him on da nex day which is on da Saturday nite lur and i went up Genting with him on last Tues till Thurs..


These 3 days, i really had alot of fun with him.. First of all i get to spend my precious holiday with someone i love..*yea i loved him more now* okay, i admit i didnt really love him when we just started together.. the feelings is like very kelam kabut liddat because i do not know whether shud i really put 100% of my feelings to him as i am afraid to get deeply hurt again.. but i was SO WRONG !!.. i didnt know he is so loveable ... okay although he do not know how to tham(pujuk) me back when i merajuk but the jokes he made and the way he teases me really made me laugh and datz when i felt happy and grateful to have him in my life after the failure of my previous relationship.. okla, i knoe the way i tok dam menjijikan now.. haha .. His warm hugs and sweet kisses really made me felt as though i have found my prince for the rest of my life.. Although we are together for not long, but i really hope we can last lah .. Well, he made me holiday !! *muakz to my baby*

Secondly, the next day i got back from Genting i went to Pyramid and visit Aya ler.. (See lah how i much i miss u Aya) hehe.. we had a great chat and i went back home around 5pm.. Den at nite later, we went Silva to yumcha again.. hoho.. one day meet twice somemore the next day in the morning means on Saturday around 7am she came over to my hse.. we had pillow talk and i had so much fun talking to her for 4 continuous hours..cos dis is when we tell everything out, all our secrets from one topic to another.. but i hope she felt better after that because she broke down the other nite.. and i was worried about her.. den on that itself, me and fern went and fetch Aya and Anu from Pyramid and headed to Cheras.. den i fetched my baby too .. we yumchar-ed at 1st station as usual.. but i think that place is abit too noisy with all the ppl and there were some people singing on the stage.. so imagine the noise add together.. ^&%*$*%^ .. dam bising rite? oh ya !! and i got TIU from my mom on that nite because i came back late.. around 3 somethin? omg ... i kena screamed and also when i reached home and i went upstairs, my mom's room's door was wide open and she stood there like some really crazy women that wanders around when they sleeps.. really scary with her harimau betina face.. seriously, i was kinda pissed actually so i didnt even glance at her and walked into my room and closed the door.. dun feel like facing her any longer.. okay i knoe i am a bad daughter. but pls !! i am already 18 yrs old and i was having my holiday pls let me enjoy to the max before going back to college ma..dam sick !!

well, the next day i woke up around 2pm? den i didnt see them at home already, so i woke up and makan abit den online ,dota with fern until they are back and she told me we are goin to Starhil for dinner.. So, fine.. Reached Starhill, sat down in the restaurant, ordered our food already.. they started lecturing me AGAIN !!! urghh !! i didnt say anything because i do not feel like talking, furthermore i think if i ever speak a word out from my mouth i will kena tiu again.. so better stfu myself.. After dat, nth much happened ler.. Oh ya !! i got my mid-term results already.. IT. IS. SO. LIKE. spending my time dota more than hitting the books before the exam.. the fact is, i dota-ed everynite before the exam next day.. i did not put any stress to myself, act like i just dun care .. okay, i need to cut down in all these dota thingies when exam is around the corner and better hit the books AT LEAST 1 week before the finals..* say only* but i really need to study.. i do not want to repeat the subjects..huhu T.T..

okayla.. i'm getting pissed off with the uploading photo process already.. i tried many times and i couldnt upload pictures.. so dis blog is abit plain boring..lol.. bare with it or dun readlah..=D..TATAZZ

P/S : I love Vic alot alot !! and i mean alot.. i'm loving him more every second each and everyday..haha.. okay, dun wanna say already later u guy's bulu roma menaik as though itz gel up =P

Posted by Weng See at Wednesday, September 20, 2006

Monday, September 11, 2006

( At 1st Station Cheras LAST WEEK !! )

How? u like it with a group picture as an Opening Ceremony after for not blogging for so long? haha..*cut the crap pls ZONNIE* *rolls eyes*..haha dam bitchy rite? all learn from AYA !!!haha.. okok, so when was da last time since i blog? dam long adi rite? haha... always kena tiu by Aya that i alwiz nvr update my blog.. one word dat i alwiz reply and told her.. L.A.Z.Y !! haha.. Btw, i am having my Holidays now !! woohoo !! soo cool rite? haha.. i am gonna lepak kao kao.. ^^V and i am going to 1Utama with my neighbour later.. den tmr i will be going up to Genting with my bf *vic* hehe.. till thurs.. nah nah nah !! u all dun think yg bukan bukan ok? hehe... i bukan org chui chui pin pin as u guys think ..*jk ya* hehe.. Dam many things happened lately i aso dunno where to start first..

( Me and Hui Min in the car CAM WHORING)


Last Saturday, omg !! i was not supposed to spend so much money but oni makan lunchie with Fernie~~ we went to ZEN !!*slurps* makan unagi and the ice cream and they free another complimentary green tea ice cream which is very nice *drools* den as usual, we CAM WHORE !! haha.. den Fernie wanted to go to the shop where the ppl selling flower clips which is also next to Aya's shop.. AHH !! the thingies there were super cantik and didnt knoe which one shud we get and TADA !! -------------------------------------------->>

We tied our hair with that !! haha... nice mou nice mou? got flower de.. i feel so HAWAII with that hair thingie !! hehe... not bad le.. oni RM10 for 2 only mar... i have been a shopaholic since the sales started and now it ended adi lor.. T__T waitin for the next round and Me,Aya and Fernie will go for another round of shopping !! Now, we have to save save save !! i think i have been using more than RM1k? or more? even my mom started complaining that every month my closet will tambah satu kawan with other baju !! haha..

Oh ya !! i went KDU juz now.. OMFG ? i didnt knoe we were invinsible to them wan... walked passed some ex classmates, and they didnt even see us and come and say HI !! wtf? anywayz, i made a right choice to change to Taylor's College.. At least, some ppl knoes i existed there ^^.. but assignments there are like.... i dunno wat to say about the assignments there.. ALOT !!! all come in one shot wan... dam shitty !! 8 pages of dumbo essays and 5 pages of history essay !!! urghh... i was suffering doing it for the past few weeks.. can die wei T__T... okay, i shud stop complaining le or u guys will get bored reading my LOVELY BLOG ^^.. hehe

Oh ya !! i alwiz go and find Aya lately.. and almost everytime i go find her, we sure will CAM WHORE !! our hobby.. kenot blame us ya ..haha.. it is fun to hang out with her la, alwiz joke and tease each other.. and she keep calling me shitty and shitass ZON !! haha.. dam teruk rite? nvmla, itz ok ^^ And we alwiz DOTA nowadays, almost everynite aso Dota Dota... wahh !! even though i got class the next day, EXAM somemore aso Dota until 4am sometimes..hardcore rite? no dota kenot sleep !! but we keep playing version 6 nowadays.. T__T and as usual, i am the noob-hai in there.. urghh !! kena pawn by own BOYFREN !! shit !! no mercy on me.. sobs sobs T.T.. nvmla, i still love him as much.. hehe <3>

okla, i am quite sleepy now lahh !! how? T___T bbut i kenot sleep cos my eyeliner i sked it smear !! somemore i'm goin out later.. aiya .. nvmler, i tahan !! hoho... tonite got piano class somemore, feel like canceling it.. dam dam lazy lah.. aihz !! >.<>

Posted by Weng See at Monday, September 11, 2006